Forgotten Moments

Forgotten Moments

My worst fear was to forget you,
That your memory would fade,
Slowly eroding thoughts of our love,
As leaves falling from a tree,
Diluted by the ticking of time.

Would I recollect our sweet moments,
Recall the precious love we shared,
Could I call to mind your sweet smile,
Reminisce your gentle touch,
With a trip down memory lane.

Fear unfounded as I finally arrive,
At a new destination of peace,
Folded neatly for the journey,
All our sweet memories packed,
Now with me always as I travel alone.

Checking In

Checking In

Dear love, I'm just checking in,
It has been too long, I know.
Many times I've tried to write,
But the words just failed to flow.

Now that so much time has passed,
And so many things have changed,
Rebuilt from the bottom up,
All our lives now rearranged.

Her hair, no more in bunches,
No more cuddles like a shroud,
Our princess is all grown up,
And would really do you proud.

Blessed with your dazzling smile,
And your beautiful brown eyes,
Also has an awkward streak,
She's your girl, so no surprise.

So I'd just like to thank you,
Hope I have not let you down,
Time to let the flower bloom,
Now our princess wears her crown.

Tenant of my Heart

Tenant of my Heart

A huge expanse lay before me,
Where this road leads is unknown.
Thanks to cruel twists of fate,
I must walk this path alone.
Things are not the same without you,
Your absence is still a big deal.
But hope that you're coming back,
Is mere fantasy and not real.
So long I have felt so guilty,
My happiness would be a crime.
But life goes on for the living,
I should join in while I have time.
It does not mean I'll forget you,
You'll always be top of my chart.
And rest assured your place is set,
In the foundations of my heart.

Life After Death

Life After Death

Ticks followed by tocks,
The phone rings, and the door knocks.
Hiding from the world,
My cocoon of brick and stone,
Disconnected and alone.

The warmth of my bed,
Tempts me from the day ahead,
Bull grabbed by the horns,
Look for what I had before,
Seek out laughter, joy and more.

Here I go again,
Yesterday was not so bad,
Had some moments when,
Despite sadness, loss and pain,
I could love my life again.

Life is not so bad,
Now I'm living it once more,
One day at a time,
With each day a brand new start,
You'll be with me, in my heart.

Black Butterfly

Black Butterfly

I've been gone so long,
There are changes all around.
Life passed quickly by,
With the past now gone to ground.

Mirror on the wall,
Do I even know this face?
Staring back in time,
This me seems so out of place.

Where are all the years,
I was not the man you see.
A self made cocoon,
Now the butterfly is free.

Time to leave my shell,
To stop hiding from the pain.
Take a peek outside,
Learn to love my life again.

See the Sun

See the Sun

I see the sun shine.
No longer through tear stained eyes.
A comforting touch,
The gentle kiss of her rays,
How I have missed this so much.

I hear children play.
The true sound of life reborn.
Music to my ears,
Ringing out to ease my soul,
Pitting hope against my fears.

Breeze upon my face,
A gentle lovers caress.
Wind blows through my hair.
Slipped my mind how good it feels,
When taking the time to care..

Always

Always

If there is a life after this one,
I know where you'll be,
At home up there in heaven,
Sat right on gods knee.

Because you were an angel,
Pure of spirit and light,
Looking our for others,
And choosing the good fight.

So loving by your nature,
You would not find a better friend,
Always putting others first,
Right to the bitter end.

I can feel you always around us,
I take comfort in knowing you're there,
And I know for sure deep in my bones,
We'll be reunited again my dear.

This Poem is dedicated in loving memory to Claire. 

I Dare Not Look

I Dare Not Look

I stare at the outside often,
Daring to peak inside.
Fully aware of what lurks there,
All of the pain that I hide.

It has never been far away from me,
Never been too far to reach.
The exterior wasn't so daunting,
But the interior I just couldn't breach.

Today something feels different,
I don't have the usual fear.
So I pick up our photo album,
And prepare to fight back a tear.

A deep breath as I open the cover,
Expecting my heart now to race.
Contrary to this, the feeling was bliss,
And a smile spread all over my face.

I thought this would prompt painful memories,
Remind me you're now an angel above.
Of all the pain when I lost you,
But now all i'm feeling is love.

No more tears when I wake in the morning,
No more heart break day after day.
I will visit these fond memories often,
And enjoy them in a newly found way.

Always My Boy

Always My Boy

You were only a cute two, the year i met you. 
Taking you on as my own, well that was my view.
Age three, your good humor was clear to see.
Always a cheery smile, often giggling with glee.
At the age of four you had started to explore,
First day at school you were the first one out the door.
Once you hit five you had really began to thrive,
Always full of energy and very much alive.
By the age of six you had learned a few more tricks,
Building planes and houses with your little Lego bricks.
Seventh year was fun, always on the run,
Cowboys and Indians with your sheriff badge and gun.
In a flash you were eight, unaware of your looming fate.
But you lived with such a passion, a very endearing trait.
Finally at age nine, right here fate drew the line,
Taking you so early, how is this not a crime?

  

Survive or Thrive

Survive or Thrive 

Oh i'd be in such trouble,
If you were here and could have your say,
You'd begin with the fact my life's empty,
One big void since you left me that day.

You'd be sad if you knew I was lonely,
Wish I'd be open to love once more,
You would tell me it is no betrayal,
and to throw the guilt out the door.

You'd be horrified to see my heart breaking,
Insist that i must let your love go,
Tell me to go live my life to the full,
Because you only reap what you sow.

I will try hard not to disappoint you,
With new dreams for which i will strive,
Because the time has come to ask myself,
Simply survive, or thrive?