Broken

Broken

Without your mighty keystone,
The bridge of my life will fall.
Each stone crashing to the ground,
Now just remnants on the floor.

Crushed, smashed and fractured,
Ruins of a time now past.
Yesterday an artifact,
As our future did not last.

How to pick up the pieces?
And where do I go from here?
All these questions haunting me,
But the answers are not clear.

Broken, smashed and splintered,
Beyond all reasoned repair.
Little motive to go on,
When I know you won't be there.

So Lonely

So Lonely

Here I am alone,
Just one in a million.
Single grain of sand,
Like a pebble on a beach,
Lonely and lost in a crowd.

Where do I belong?
Feeling lost among the stars.
A spark in the sun,
Merely a word in a book,
And a note within a song.

Drop in the ocean,
A blade on a grassy hill.
Lonesome as can be,
Like a star in the nights sky,
Just one leaf upon a tree.

Goodbye My Love Part 2

Goodbye My Love Part 2

A tug to the hand,
Brings with it welcome relief.
So many people,
Beady eyes are out to play,
When I look they turn away.

Small hand gripping tight,
My tiny pillar of strength.
Here to say goodbye,
Let the tears begin to flow,
For a mum she'll never know.

Must I say goodbye?
I endured the premiere.
Do it all again?
Just to let these people see,
That your loss has broken me.

Poking at my wounds,
They are not a pretty sight.
Still they peer my way,
Waiting for me to perform,
The first tear would bring a storm.

Let You Go

Let You Go

I don't want to let you go,
Nothing's further from my mind.
Just throw you out like rubbish?
And they think they're being kind.

I don't want to let you go,
They say it's time to move on.
It seems to make a difference,
That your presence is now gone.

I don't want to let you go,
You have not long left my side.
Wont stop thinking about you,
Nor your pictures will I hide.

I don't want to let you go,
What you ask is just too soon.
Please end the discussion here,
Let's talk again, next blue moon.

Language Barrier

Language Barrier

I could say the words,
But they would not hear me speak.
Longing to be heard,
Speech with no recognition,
How to make them hear my cries.

How to make them see,
The world through my tear filled eyes,
Darkness covers all,
"Look to the future", they say,
Cannot see that they are blind.

They don't understand,
The darkness, the rage, the guilt,
No comprehension,
They just say I should move on,
But the world looks different now.

They can't smell the truth,
I exist here on my own,
Deep isolation,
All alone in my despair,
Lonely in a crowded room.

System Scan

System Scan

Running system scan...
Unknown feelings detected!
Emotional overload,
Your system is infected.

Suspect program one,
Life no longer holds meaning.
Why get out of bed,
When eyes just can't stop streaming.

Suspect program two,
The interface is broken.
No one understands,
Result, few words are spoken.

Suspect program three,
All energy depleted.
Fail to face the day,
This error must be treated.

System scan complete.
Grief has steered you for a fall.
No need for alarm,
You are human after all.

Endless Thoughts

Endless Thoughts

Dripping with perspiration,
As mind and body awakes,
A restless night spent thinking,
And so, another day breaks.

Thinking cap on each morning,
Appraise in the afternoon,
Evening contemplation,
These thoughts cannot end too soon.

Pondering over breakfast,
At lunch another review.
Reflect while eating dinner,
All of these thoughts are of you.

Sick of mulling it over,
This study will drive me mad.
A skip day would be useful,
A break from being so sad.

Scared to Sleep

Scared to Sleep

I find no solace sleeping,
I am not friends with my bed.
In on the conspiracy,
To keep 'that' day in my head.

All my dreams are the same now,
They don't travel very far.
The tragic day you left us,
Back to the stuff of a star.

One memory that haunts me,
As it's on a loop you see,
The moment, you breathed your last,
That's the dark that awaits me.

Now longing for an exit,
Find an escape, from my dreams,
Finally, my prayer answered,
Waking up, to my own screams.

Better off Dead

Better off Dead

Let me state my case
How I am better off dead.
Let me have my say,
Now please keep an open mind,
Then choose if I'm in error.

Not been gone too long.
My memories are quite fresh.
Sharp and carved in stone.
Vivid in every way,
Your smell, your laugh, your embrace.

When we meet again,
Would I recognize your face?
The tick-tock of time,
Heading towards the cold dark,
Of age and forgetfulness.

My claim is simple.
My memorizes will soon fade,
Your face will blur,
Join you now while my love shines?
Or a life far more obscure?

Dark Clouds

Dark Clouds

Dark clouds above me,
A world of hurt lay below.
Is this my lot now?
Empty life without you here,
Void of love and your caress.

Dark clouds keep rolling,
There's no escape from the rain.
Now drenched to the skin,
Seeping in through every pour.
I need shelter from this storm.

Out seeking the sun,
To bring new light to my day.
Cold, lost and weary,
Need some solace for my heart,
As it's pulling me apart.

A Castaway

A Castaway

Dark clouds of despair rolling above,
Obscures the peak of mount melancholy.
Surrounded by a rough sea of sadness,
Waves of woe crashing all over me.

Where is this place i have landed?
A castaway in a far off land.
Beaches of gloom and misery,
Great sorrow in each grain of sand.

I really need to escape here,
Build a raft from my dreams and hopes.
Leave unhappiness there on the shoreline,
And break free of these heavy heart ropes.

Depression is no laughing matter,
Dejection is not a great show.
But no blast of darkness can block out the light,
Just one match can make a room glow.